Masturbation Meet-Up APRIL 3-5 2009!

So I've been organizing this meet-up for likeminded guys from my favorite website Bate Nation (which unfortunately will soon be closing).

It is being held April 3-5 in sunny Palm Springs. I'm pretty excited about it as it will give masturbators an actual chance to meet up and goon out for a weekend. It looks like maybe 20 guys might go.

The one thing I'm a bit nervous about is that I have reserved a house at a gay resort for this. It has been a big undertaking. I ask myself if the guys who have committed to this will actually show, will I get stuck with footing the bill, will guys actually have a good time and just enjoy the weekend. Of course, I tend to overthink these things. I'm sure it will be great no matter what happens.

If you happen to be interested in this event and are ready my blog, let me know and I can keep you up to date about it.

Penis of the Day: This one is nice and hairy. I bet it looks good with Albolene stuck in the pubes.

Today's Bate

Today I jacked for a good 3 hours. I woke up early and got a good hour in before my bf woke up. Later in the day my bf went to the gym (don't think I didn't go, just earlier in the day) and I dropped my pants, got the lube and then began really working my cock. I mean REALLY working it. Within a few minutes I was feeling so great. I felt the build and the edge come over me. Goon time.

It helps having buddies out there in cyberspace to chat with as I maturbate. We egg eachother on to go deeper into the maturbation and really feel it. Within an hour I felt so amazing, edged, precum drooling, high on my cock. A natural endorphin high that I can create with my hand, my cock, and some lube. It's the greatest!

So I worked my cock more and more, and heard my bf coming back home. Often I will sort of hide my jack session, but I was so horny I just kept working my cock. He comes home and we talk, he sees me boned, and just sort of mentions it. He knows I'm chronic by now and it doesn't phase him.

He goes to the bathroom to take his shower and comes in with a hard on. I ask him to jack off for me, but he really wants to see my cum he says. He hasn't seen it for 2 or 3 weeks. We've played around in that time, but usually I'm on sort of a no-cum phase. If I cum too often then I'm not horny - especially because I like to jack so much. If I cum early in the day, then I'm done. No more jacking later which I love to do.

Anyhow, I oblige and work up my cock and cum on him as he jacks and cums. It was fun, but over a bit too fast. It was then just 3 pm....what to do with the rest of my day? Oh ya....chores!

Ok....what is it with TWINS! These guys are totally adorable and I so want them to just reach over and jack eachother. They don't, but hot anyhow!

So needy for a real Bate!

It's been several days now without getting into my cock. I'm so needy for masturbation about now. It is such an integral part of my life now, my sexual identity, that now when I go back to my birth town it is really tough. I'm open and gay here, and my partner is here with me, but I'm definitely not open about my masturbation. Who is other than with their partner or jack buds?

Our society is so messed up about sex though. It took me years to get over even being comfortable with being naked. Even now, when I lay out at a naked beach or am fully unclothed in light, I feel a bit awkward. This is something that I'm working on and will no doubt take years more.

What I'm really looking for is to totally expose myself with masturbators. With being more comfortable with my sexual identity and my body, there is nothing more revealing than really showing a buddy or watching a buddy masturbate, and really get down with our penises. It is so base and innate, it turns me on so much.

I can't wait to get home tomorrow. I'm sure I'll have sex with my partner first, but then Sunday will be getting into my masturbation. So fucking needy!

Home for the Holidays

I'm visiting my parents right now. It sure puts a crimp in my normal routine. It is great to see family and spend some time with them, but I am such a regular addict bator that it it totally gets me off my normal horny bating.

I'm here for a few days, and have plenty of time to bate, just not a lot of interest. Too much family time. I do often check Bate Nation and my email, hoping there might be some bate bud to converse with. Boy, am I glad I have my own space and am an adult now. No more masturbating in my room while I listen for my parents perhaps coming up the stairs.

Being home reminds me of being such a horny masturbator as a teenager though. When my parents would go out to do errands or I would get some free time at home I absolutely couldn't wait. I would search the house and look for something to stick my cock in. Maybe a bottle? Maybe a jar? Plus all the time I spent looking for a proper lube. I'd use lotion that would dry out so fast. I tried mayonnaise, olive oil, all sorts of things. If only I new about Albolene then. I went to Walgreens here to do a little shopping and had to walk by the Albolene section and they carry it and it was on sale. Made me bone up in the store looking at the label even.

I come home Saturday and am already looking forward to getting my bate on. There is so much new bate fuel on Bate Nation that I will be entertained for hours.

Now for a man masturbating!

I'm in Love

I've found a new album I'm totally in love with. Sia - oh man. Her singing and the orchestra is just awesome. Really moving. A nice break from all the holiday crap around.

Merry Batemas!

Well, I'm off for some family time, so will be taking a bate hiatus. Though I love my family, and enjoy seeing them, it is tough for a true masturbator to take a week off from jacking. Some how I will manage! I might jack here and there, but nothing like I do relaxed at home with my bate fuel in front of me. Plus, I don't think the TSA would take too kindly on me travelling with my poppers.

Here's to many hours of bating in 2009!

Cock Glory

Do you ever masturbate and just feel so full of your own cock? After an hour or two or three (ok...I sometimes do jack more than that too) my phallus seems so central to me. It's what I refer to as cock bliss. I forget how difficult my day was, any stresses float away, and I just feel so centered on my penis. Penile meditation.

Why is it that more men don't get this? I dedicate serious attention to my penis, and have mastered it. I can masturbate and feel so great. Sure, it is nice to share it with a buddy too, and there really is nothing like having a jack buddy share in cock bliss. I'm just happy that at 35 I feel so in touch with my male phallus and that I have years to enjoy it. I do feel sad for other men who don't get it. Men who masturbate to cum. Men who don't masturbate at all. Men who have to masturbate behind closed doors with their wife or partner in bed. My new found masturbator freedom is wonderful. I feel like the person I truly am - cock in hand, greasy palms.

PENIS!

Penises

More Bate Fuel

Breath Away

Sometimes something will just take your breath away. Earlier this week is was the most amazing sunrise I have seen in a very long time. The valley was blanketed in fog, Mt. Hood was visible, it was breathtaking.



It sometimes happens to me to when I meet other real masturbators. There are a few men over the years where I feel like I really connect with them. They enjoy their stroking, edging, sexual side as much as I do. If it weren't for some distance I'm sure we would be good friends masturbating a lot, openly and proudly sharing our edge.

Now for some bate fuel!

Pics from my Jack Session

I went over to my jack buds house last night. He's into leather, which can be hot. He's the first guy I've met with a harness and a bunch of other gear. It definitely can be fun to get into the scene, as you can see here.

Jacking Buddy

I have a local jack buddy who is pretty damn fun to get together with. Tonight will be our 5th meet up, and looking forward to many more. He just gets gooning on cock for a while and getting fucked up on dong.

I met him on Manhunt and now feel pretty comfortable around him. He's only about a mile away, so I ride my bike to his house, park in his back yard and enter through the back door. He has windows to his basement and I can already see him masturbating down there when I arrive. First time we met it was a bit awkward, as first times always are, but we warmed up to our obsession with cock play. We had porn going and what not, now we don't even use it. We just get down and dirty on our dicks, some music in the background.

He has plenty of Albolene at the ready and some poppers when we want it. Set up around the room are three mirrors so we can hang out in front of them, jack ourselves and eachother. Overall, it is pretty fucking hot. He's pretty busy, and I think has a few other fuck buds (he likes more than just dick, but understands really gooning) so we get together every couple weeks. I think he's also about gunshy because I have a partner, which he knows about, but says it's cool, which is a lot more than many of the other guys on hook-up sites like Manhunt. What do they expect? - A long term boyfriend from meeting online on a website called "Manhunt"? I don't get it.

Tonight I will take my camera and start taking pictures of him as I enter, never showing his face. I think he'll be cool with it. I'll post it here if it all goes well.

Needless to say I've had a hard time not jacking today. Usually in the AM before work I'm jacking, and first thing I do when I get home is jack for a little while. Instead of jacking before work I had an extra hour, so guess what I did - you'll never guess - vacuumed the house. Ya....pretty exciting. Is this what other people do who don't spend a lot of time with their cock in their hand. Na - I doubt it. Most likely they sleep in and watch TV at night. I think I'll take my sessions of masturbation over that any time.

And now, something to goon at.

The Allure of the Little Brown Bottle

For several years I'd been hearing about poppers. I wasn't sure exactly what they were. I'd seen them in the porn store as video head cleaner. What the heck is this stuff? How do you use it?

Being with my partner for more than a dozen years I hadn't really dabbled in extracurricular fun. We aren't monogamous by any means, but I hadn't really fucked around with guys who used them. Finally, I looked up online what these things were. I went down to the adult store and bought a bottle. Next time I was jacking I thought I would experiment with them. I wasn't sure how much to use, or exactly how to sniff them. I got the hang of it, and within minutes I was so fucking horny and so fucking gooned out I blew a load almost immediately. Wow! I think I'm in love with a little brown bottle.

Now I use them on occasion and just love going deep with them. They take me to the next level of masturbation. I've also come to understand just how close I can get with them. I have to be be careful or next thing I know I will be popping off a load and over the edge.It's a fine line with poppers. My favorite brand is England, but really I've tried a variety of different kinds and they all have the same effect. They get me fucking horny.

Mind you, I don't use them every time I masturbate. Definitely not. They tend to at times give me a slight headache the next day. But, I guess, what do you expect from huffing some chemical dozens of times.

A few months back an online guy showed me a different kind of huff stuff called Max Impact. I got a bottle, tried it, and it made me fucking high as hell. However, a word of warning, you will lose track of your cock with this stuff. Why I like poppers is I just get dick focused.
With Max I just become crazed. I wound up throwing most of it away because it was too much for my taste.

Ball Stretchers, Cock Rings and Albolene

My lube of choice for masturbation is an oil based "moisturizer" called Albolene. It is somewhere between Vaseline, which is too thick, and mineral oil which is too thin. It can be found in the facial area in most major drug stores. I first heard about it about 4 or 5 years ago from an online friend. I had been jacking with the normal things that you grow up with, like lotion. But a few hours of jacking with that gets pretty old. It dries up or gets glopped up on my hand or penis.

When I found out about it I was living abroad, so had to wait until I returned. One of the first things I did when I returned was search out Albolene, and I haven't turned back since. Currently I have 3 jars going: one near the bed, and 2 in the masturbation room. Now just the thought of dipping my fingers in the jar and spreading it on my cock excites me. The label excites me. Seeing the grease excites me. Even a few spare pubic hairs stuck in the jar is hot. I pretty much get off even thinking about my masturbation.

I like my masturbation slick so will add more and more as I jack. It never dries out and an all day session of hours my hand is still slick, cock greased. I have noticed it pulls moisture from my hand and after 4 or 5 hours my finger tips are a bit pruned as if I were soaking in a tub. Not sure why that happens.

Also, if I do really go deep into an edge and get right to the edge and leak some cum, but without the actual orgasm, the Albolene gets gummy on my hand and cock. I'll usually just wipe it all off and start over.

In addition to the Alb dressing up my cock for serious masturbation not only looks good it feels amazing. I have a variety of cock rings and ball stretchers and even nipple suction toys. In this pic you will see some of my favorites. The circular cock ring is made from the same stuff as wetsuits and is very comfortable. I can wear it all day. However my favorite cock ring is a new one I recently got from Picturebrite (also a good source for poppers). It has a single snap but is adjustable with a metal hoop. It is great for a just right fit over the snap cock ring.

I also love ball stretchers. My favorite is the 3 snapper which makes my balls nice and tight. The 2 snapper small one is great too, and easy to throw on in no time. The final ball stretcher I bought thinking some day I might fit in it. ha ha ha There's no way at this point.

Where do I keep all this stuff? Draped in my Albolene jar. The leather dips in the grease and it makes it that much softer. Just getting them out I have to get greasy and so turned on to begin my masturbation session.

Fuck....I'm so horny writing this time to jack for a few hours.

Finding Maturbation Time

Sometimes all I want to do is just masturbate. For instance, early this week a friend asked if I were interested in going to a movie on Thursday night. "Sure," I said off-handedly, not really thinking about it.


Wednesday my friend calls me to confirm plans and I'm already thinking in the back of my my mind how am I going to jack? When? Most work nights you will find me in the office, in my desk chair, legs wide, greasy Albolene dick for at least a few hours. "Hell," I thought. Why did I say yes to this movie? I won't be able to jack.

Thursday rolls around and I get home a bit early from work and immediately grease up to jack. Why oh why did I say I'd go to the movie? All I want to do is jack. I have dinner and then head to the movie a little annoyed with myself. All in all, I have to say the movie was great so head to it yourself, "Let the Right One In", a Swedish vampire movie. (Sounds weird but unexplainable and really excellent.)

But guess what I did when I got home? More masturbation! I'm an addict, what can I say?

A penis for you now!
Mine.

Morning Ritual

Mornings are all mine. I get up with my bf, but he goes to work an hour or so before I need to head out. So, the second the door closes, I'm sitting down in my chair, legs wide, albolene in hand, and stroking. I love my morning ritual. Most mornings I don't cum, just a nice hour of gooning. I'll usually push it to the limit and feel the edge hard a few times. I'll also push it to the limit as to how long I masturbate, often being a bit late to work. The penis calls! What can I say?

This morning I had a great chat with one of my new jack friends that from Bate Nation. The internet is amazing for creating relationships with people far and wide, but all with the same interest. Would I be in the same state I am in before the internet? Probably not. I wouldn't have easy access to all the porn my hard drive can hold (who needs gigs of porn anyhow...ok....wait...I do!). I wouldn't be able to share my experiences with other men and chat online. I also wouldnt' feel proud of my masturbation. Meeting and sharing with other men our mutual interest had made me so much more comfortable with who I am and what I enjoy.

Speaking of enjoy - check out this pic. I so wish I could do that. When I'm truly masturbated and focused on my cock, I want to just lean down and kiss it. Only when I was 18 could I. Gone are those days! I have to enjoy it from afar with my fist.

Bad News and Porn News

Horrible news recently. You'd think a member of the family were dying, but instead I found out Bate Nation, my favoritest most awesome website that I check all the time will be folding. I guess Ning, the parent group, won't support adult forums anymore. So sad! What am I going to do? How will I find bator buddies?

I guess I will rely on porn to fuel my bate. What kind of porn do I prefer, you might ask? Well, I turn to some of the more raunchy stuff. Though I don't condone bareback sex and think it is not the right thing to do, I feel so drawn to Treasure Island Media porn with the most amazing animalistic guys fucking, licking, shooting, jacking, poppering, and just letting loose with their sexual desires. I'd go for safe porn, if I found that the pruned and primped and shaved men actually got into their sex. Instead it is a lot of fake groaning. I want to see men get fucking crazed on their dicks, and the men they are with. So, TIM is the bomb for sitting down, and masturbating and poppering and getting down right animal on my cock. Do I feel good about supporting that kind of industry where actors fuck bareback? Not particularly, but they are consenting adults and I can only hope that they know their HIV status.

One of my favorite "actors" (can you call a porn star an actor, a model?) is Jesse O'toole. Man, seeing a tattooed dude fucking a hot guy, kissing and downright enjoying his sex is amazing.

Sunday Jacking

So yesterday I woke up with a slight cold and unbelievably didn't feel much like jacking. My usual morning routine on weekends is to wake up before my boyfriend (bf from here on out) and sit down in front of the computer, login, put on porn, maybe see who's on line to chat with and webcam with. I'll get out the albolene, maybe strap on one of my cock rings and ball stretchers and get to work on my dong.



Instead, yesterday I wasn't really in the mood to masturbate, but by late afternoon the hormones were calling out and I had to start up. My bf was around doing other stuff. We've been together a really long time in gay years, and he doesn't really know about my real chronic addiction to my cock. I've usually jacked while he's not around, or surreptitiously. Sure, he knows I enjoy sex, but I've not ever quite shared with him that when he might not be around I will masturbate for 8 or 10 hours.

Lately, however, I've been feeling the pull to really express my sexual needs. Yesterday I started to masturbate openly and he walked in on me. I asked if he wanted to join and he said sure. So I really worshipped his cock, and made him cum. I, however, expressed that I didn't want to cum. Why cum and waste the rest of the evening being out of it? I had all evening to masturbate and edge. So we had dinner, and I sat back down and masturbated the rest of the night, openly. I still felt a bit odd about it, with him walking in on me at different periods and remarking that he couldn't believe I was still stroking. That's what I do though! I'm a masturbator. I love my penis, what can I say?

My Online Presence

For years I have used Yahoo Messenger to accumulate a group of likeminded men who love to pleasure themselves. I now have quite a few long time friends. Strange to call someone who you only see online a friend, but I have spend hours with them, camming, chatting, talking about our horniness. What can I say? Getting off at home, on cam is great when compared to going to a bar where most of the guys are looking for a top or a bottom. I'm all about penis man!

More recently I have become a regular of Smartstim - a great resource for estim - and now Bate Nation. Both websites I check regularly. I've even gone so far now to organize a Bate Nation Meetup this April in Palm Springs. I'm nervous about the event, but enough like minded guys getting together will be a fantasy cum true.

Intro to Electrostim

For several years now I've really become addicted to pleasuring my penis/cock/dong. Ok, more than several years, probably since I was 11 and first experienced the tension and build up and final explosion of an orgasm.

I first used to masturbate several times a day and cum each and every time. For years into my twenties this was masturbation to me. I then learned to push the 'edge' and maintain the edge for hours and hours only to finally to cum.

I somehow stumbled on a video of something called electrostimulation, where basically you hook up electrodes and a special box to your cock. After seeing the edge and final hands free orgasm I knew I had to try this. I ordered a TENS and after more than a few tries I was sorely (literally) disappointed in the feelings I was able to achieve. I decided to jump in and ordered an ET312B. What was I doing spending nearly $500 on a sex toy? I haven't looked back since though and have had the same unit for more than 6 years now with hours of enjoyment under my belt.

Learning to use this device has brought me new pleasures I never knew I could attain. I don't use it every day, but it is thoroughly enjoyable. How does it feel? Sort of like an internal vibrator but way better? Until you try it and master it you can't believe your cock can feel so good.

The ET312 pushed me into going deep into enjoying my cock for hours on end. At first I felt a bit guilty about this - sitting in my desk chair totally into my penis. Was I a sex addict? Was I sex crazed? I've overcome that and really see my enjoying the feelings that my penis can give me and my brain as something too many men overlook. Instead they will masturbate in the shower, pop off a load, and dumb themselves in front of the boob tube.

I now enjoy masturbating with my fist or the ET312 daily, for hours often. This has been a bit problematic for my partner, as I will talk about further in this blog.

Hello from an Edge Addict

Greetings! Here I am, years after everyone has already been blogging for a while. Never too late to catch up though! Right?

So this blog is going to be about my life. Open and honest. Feel free to comment.